I love salad. I am going to start of with that. I love salad. There is nothing bad about it. You can put anything you want in it. Lettuce, peppers, cheese, nuts, shrimp, pasta, crab meat. Anything at all. A little dressing and it’s a great easy meal. Again I love salad.

I don’t love that after I eat salad, I crave, no let me rephrase that CRAVE chocolate. Doesn’t matter what kind of salad, If I make it or if it’s from a restaurant, within 20 minutes, I NEED CHOCOLATE So today, after my very yummy salad, I needed chocolate. A friend of mine gave me a WW bar. It did the trick but wasn’t satisfying. It helped the urge, it got the taste in my mouth, but man did I want a snickers bar. I am a big believer of, If you want it, eat it. If you want and say, no no it’s not healthy, you will only binge later. But I resisted No snickers for me. 2 reasons, I was to lazy to get up to get one and when I was finally not lazy, there weren’t any. Bonus.
So since the crave for chocolate is over, I don’t crave the snickers. I realized that it wasn’t the snickers per say, it was the taste of chocolate. I love realizing that stuff.

I meant to get here this morning, but I have been BUSY!

I did ok w. eating yesterday. I also got a good report from the doctor….

My incision still hurts, so no strenous exercise for awhile. Not like I have been doing anything for a long time. I have decided that once I can do something in the way of exercise I will start w. stretching and gentle yoga. My problem is that I *like* to think I am in the same shape I was in 7 years ago. That is when I worked out a lot: spinning, weights etc. So, I think I can just hop in at full speed, which means I hurt myself and give up….. You know the cycle.

Since my surgeries my appetite has been greatly reduced. I am eating a lot less. Lots of stuff that I used to eat doesn’t even taste good anymore. Like bars: balance, cliff, luna etc….I used to eat them all the time. I think they made me gain weight.

The hardest time of day for me is 4-6. I tend to snack and snack and snack…. Crackers, chips, cheese. I am a carb head!

I have decided that my word for the year is BLISS. Isn’t that a great word? I am doing (trying) to do things to take care of myself and feel the bliss. I did my clearings today and that is total bliss.

What does bliss mean ot you?

I am tracking my food. I hate doing this…it means you have to be accountable. But, it does make you present and aware of what you are or are not eating. I will post my food log tomorrow.
Have you heard of SKINNY COW? They make the best fudge bars and at 110 calories they are a great treat.

Enough of my ramblings….

So yesterday did not go as well as planned, I got to work and ordered a salad for lunch but then the chef brought out Banana’s Foster for everyone to try so I fell off the wagon so to speak. I did ok with dinner though, I had Tortellini with marinara sauce. So all in all I think yesterday was a wash and I am ok with that. Today has just been so so but I am proud of the fact that I walked on the treadmill instead of sitting in front of the TV. It is a small victory, I can but myself first! I joined WW online and am waiting for my at home kit to get here, no meetings in my area are kid friendly so I decided to go this route instead. I am hoping it gets here soon so I can really get started, right now I kinda feel like I am in limbo. I want you ladies to know I am trying to comment on all posts but if I miss one it is not intenional. Between work, being a mom and cleaning house  and trying to keep up with all my blogs and post here and at my blog I sometimes get sidetracked. I am hosting a tupperware party tonight at the hotel I work at and I know I will snack on things that I should probably leave alone but I am going to have a salad for dinner to try and be a bit healthier, not to mention fill me up! Well time to go read some more blogs.

P2G: 50

Pounds2Go: 44 (+.5 lb from previous P2G)

Today I am sad, and frustrated. I did really well yesterday – walked 3 miles in 49 minutes – but my shoes caused my right foot some pain so I decided it would be a good idea to invest in some great walking shoes, considering I’m planning on getting up to 5 miles a day. Right. Great idea.

I tried on 20 or more walking and running shoes yesterday. I found a pair that made me feel like I was walking on clouds, so I snatched them right up. New Balance. Not nearly as cheap as my other tennies. I walked around the house with them on yesterday to get used to them.

I got on the treadmill this morning. About a mile and a half into my walk, my right heel was starting to smart. I didn’t have any problems with my left foot – just the right. I kept adjusting my sock, adjusting the shoe, and kept walking. 3.9 miles an hour. I was worried that when I took my shoe off there would be blood all over my sock and new shoe, but I ignored it and ended up walking 3.01 miles in just under 48 minutes today.

I now have two giant blisters that cover the back of both heels. Yep, my left foot didn’t hurt then, but it does now. The one on the right is not happy – not one little bit.

CRAP. :rant:

What now? Wait til morning? wear two pair of socks? Tie my shoes so tight that I can’t feel my feet while I’m tripping over them? Waaaahhhh. :sniff:

Top it off with going over my cals by 100 yesterday (1610), being a total putz as a supportive and encouraging friend, and for the past 24 hours I feel like a big old weeniehead.

Oh, yes, and do we have a member who is well versed in wordpress and would like to volunteer as an editor, to do some little things around here should I get behind?

Hello everyone. I joined this to make myself be accountable to more than just myself. I have 100 lbs. to lose and if I don’t get a good handle on it by 6 months time, I will proceed with gastric bypass surgery. I feel I have to try one more time to lose it (which I have done many times) and not gain it back. So….. I decided to go back to Weight Watchers, by myself (with promises from friends that they will go next week) because I am determined and will do this however or whatever it takes and for myself. If anyone wants to join me there, fine, and if not that is fine too. I weighed in and it wasnt as bad as I thought but I found I had regained the 15 lbs. I had lost before Christmas – story of my life, oh well.. but onward. So after the WW meeting, I went home, re-read the materials and thought about what to do for my morning routine. I got up earlier, took my time to get stuff together for work and fix my breakfast. Actually, I got off to a very good start, wrote everything down in my little WW Fast tracker thingy and did my own personal journal. I feel better this morning than I have in months, and I guess it just feels good to be doing something. Anyways, I look forward to getting to know the people on this site and send many thanks to Leanne for putting it up. Good Luck everyone on your weight loss.

Well, I stepped lightly on the scale this morning and I definately didn’t like what I saw. I weigh 142 lbs and yes for this 5’0″ body, I am overweight. Just short and fat. That was an eye opener! So according to this website I should weigh between 97-127 lbs. My starting goal is 115 lbs. I need to loose 27 lbs.

Well I will have my journal in one hand, jug of water in the other and go about my busy day. I will check back here later to see how everyone is doing.

My stats: Current weight: 142 Goal: 115 P2G: 27

So I started my day yesterday with great intentions. After getting new tires and spending $400 I didn’t want to I became sluggish. I usually treadmill in the morning and if I don’t, boy is it tough to get on later. Then my friend called. Thank you, Leanne. I told her I did want to. She said that’s why you need to! So I did. I walked 2 miles again yesterday. She also gave me a tip that if getting on the scale is frustrating I should try taking measurements instead. Again, thank you Leanne! I’m trying hard to establish my routine this week (a hint from Jade!) so that next week when I go back to teaching after my break I’ll be set. So thank you to all of you for your support, kindness, and understanding. Here’s to a good day. My tip for the day…chew sugar free gum while your making dinner and cleaning up to keep from picking!

Pounds 2 Go – 21.5! YEAH!