Tomorrow is a big day. I will go weigh in at Weight Watchers in my first week of trying the program again. The truth is, I have tried it before, sometimes with success and sometimes with complete failure. But, there is more at stake this time than ever before, so failure is not an option. In fact, rather than just having my weight loss goal, I have chosen to make becoming a lifetime member my goal this time around. It means committing to this not just until I lose weight, but forever.

My story didn’t start out this way. Growing up, I did not have weight problems at all. I was very athetic and active, playing 4-5 sports in my small Texas high school. I loved running cross country, playing basketball and volleyball, and running long distance for the track team.

About my senior year, I noticed some changes in my metabolism. But, working out and staying busy kept my weight from getting too out of hand. It is funny though because I look back at pictures and marvel at how small I was, yet back then I remember tearful moments that I’d see myself in a photo and think I was so fat. I guess that’s body dysmorphic disorder at its finest.

So, here I am today facing the biggest challenge of my life. I was diagnosed with diabetes last year and have not been able to lose weight at all, despite joining a running program and upping my exercise significantly. I feel in better shape than I have in years, yet I’m the same weight and it doesn’t seem to change no matter what I do.

Losing weight is a must for me. I must get to the bottom number in my weight range for my body frame, to have any chance of going off my medication and having to never go on insulin. It still may not work. But, I have to try.

So, the week went quite well, except for the past two days, and I’m afraid I may have blown it. I didn’t eat horrible, but ate more than I should have at dinner both nights. I will be so disappointed if I don’t have a loss tomorrow, but it will just mean more discipline and more determination to make the next week a big losing week.

I am so happy to be a part of this forum and look forward to talking to lots of you ladies, especially any of you who have Type 2 Diabetes or who are doing Weight Watchers currently (or both). Wish me luck tomorrow!