I haven’t written much over at my regular blog–at least not like I would usually–since I began this journey January 18th. Could it be that I’m so focused on finding a new healthy me that I haven’t got time for introspection unless it’s health/goal/fitness related?

Thanks to those lovely female hormones that plague us all once (or twice) a month, I went off plan a bit this weekend when faced with what seemed like an uncontrollable urge for chocolate and fast food. I kept it somewhat in control though. It definitely could have (and has) been worse.

Movement has been the key today. I added strength training to my workout, walked my thirty minutes, and danced for 20 minutes to some kids shows with my nearly-three-year-old and 15 month old. They loved it and so did I.  My muscles are all pleasantly sore.

I discovered SparkPeople.com as recommended by Shelli and have been exploring all the cool features there today. It’s definitely worth a look. I used the fitness program there to choose my strength workout and they include a demonstration of each exercise as well.

It’s good to start the week feeling strong and motivated and focused despite the hormones that always seem to defeat me. That is a huge step forward, especially for me.

How has your week begun? More importantly how will it continue?

I started Nutrisystem yesterday.      And I already missed two meals.

I didn’t eat dinner last night (Sunday)  I just forgot.  Today, my lunch didn’t cook right.   That’s one problem with NS.  The lunches need boiling water, not easy to do, with a sink and a microwave.   I will figure it out.
Anyway…the food ain’t bad, when it’s cooked correctly.

So, now for the excercising…I know, I said I was going to join the gym…didn’t happen.    I want to.  I do.   But I just can’t get motiviated to do it.   I want to…really.  But I have some issues, what if I don’t like the classes.  What if it’s not a good place what if I am a complete spaz and can’t keep up. It irrational fear, I know,  but I can’t help thinking that.    It’s not expensive.  You can join for one month for 39$.  I know if I do that, I can test the classes, see if I like them, can do them.     So, once again, I call for help and motivation.   I have a few other things, like ot at work that I need to do.

So, I make a vow.    When I am caught up at work, which will be in a week or so, (and I can’t say no to $36/hour) I will join.

Wow. This group support journal is a great idea. I’ll be honest – I followed a link to pounds2go from Marie several weeks ago and thought it was a cool site then, but for whatever reason I just wasn’t motivated to join (or motivated to do anything ELSE for that matter). Yesterday morning I woke up and knew it was time to start making changes, so I looked up this site again and signed up. I’m hoping the group support and accountability will keep me going!
A little bit about myself: I’m 37 and single with no children. When I’m home I’m not much of a cook. I’m very content microwaving a can of soup for dinner. If left to my own devices, I tend to be a grazer and rarely ever eat a whole meal, but I DO eat little stuff all day long.
I spent most of my 20s and 30s being overweight, and in 2000 I went to WW and lost ~60 lbs. I still had 30 or so to go to reach a “not-overweight” weight, but I plateaued and didn’t push myself to lose more weight at that time. I maintained that weight until last year and have been pretty happy with myself. Last year in Jan – March, I followed a fairly strict workout plan fit into a bridesmaid dress. After the wedding I told myself that I deserved a little break (I had totally burnt myself out). It’s been 10 months. Over the past several months I’ve noticed that my jeans are uncomfortable and even my underwear and bras are getting tight.

So here I am, tight undies and all, ready to get rid of the new 10lbs I gained and hopefully, that last 30lbs, too. If I can lose 2 lbs a week, I will be free of that extra weight by early summer. I think that’s an attainable goal.

Thanks for all the hellos and well-wishes. I’m really looking forward to this!

After 3 wonderful weeks of success, I hit a rollercoaster ride. I weighed in Friday at a gain of 2 pounds:rant:. How could that be? I did everything like I did previous weeks. I didn’t cheat. I raised my work out time. So I weighed again Saturday night and I had lost the 2 pounds that Friday showed. Only thing I can figure it to be is it is almost that time of the month.:duh: So it ends up 0 loss for the week, better than a gain of 2.

PTG: still 38 by July (still 88 total)

Four new members have been added to the group, I thought I’d put up a sticky for a couple of days to welcome them and give everyone a chance to become familiar with some new names/faces.

Please Welcome Cathy, Slightly Fluffy, Elle and She!

I found this article about the ChangeOne Diet on Reader’s Digest site this morning.  It looks sensible and realistic for anyone searching for a “plan” to follow.   Just FYI.

Well, title of the post kinda says it all really.  I am really worried about tomorrow’s weigh in.  Last week’s weigh in I put ON a lb even though I had stuck to points and had a good amount of water.  I could have done more exercise than I actually did but I was exhausted from getting so little sleep. I was disappointed with gaining obviously – especially as I could see no real reason as to why.  Now had i gone and eaten a choc cake or something then at least I would know that is where I went wrong.  But, I didn’t – I have been really good.

Same goes this week.  I have been good, stuck to points and had a good amount of water.  Still finding the exercise difficult.  Not because I am tired so much this week, its just trying to find the time.  There is no time for me…. Leigh leaves at 7am and gets back at 5.30pm, then its tea time and by the time that is done with its bed time for Teagan and dark outside.  Looking forward to the nights getting lighter so that I can maybe go for a walk with Savannah in her pram after tea or something.  Time just seems to disappear – like now for instance – me and the girls are not even dressed!  They are in their highchairs having breakfast and its 10am!! Where does all the time go?  I know that if i get ready to go out for a walk say…by the time I get back it will be past lunch time already and I don’t know how I am goingt to fit in all this housework, cooking blah blah blah and still have time for me!

I am so worried that I am going to go to the weigh in tomorrow and put on again.

I don’t want them to all be sitting there thinking I am stuffing my face with chocolate or cake or chips all week when in fact I have been really good damn it!!!! I have been good even though Leigh has sat here and eaten ice cream, chocolate cake (a whole one that is supposed to feed 8 people) crisps and chocolate in front of me!  I had sugar free jelly (jello I think you call it over there?) and my WW puddings for 2.5 points or snack a jacks (0.5 point each.) I had 0 point veg curry every day for my lunch…I have been good I swear.
I feel heavy, I feel bloated….I don’t feel like i have lost weight and I don’t know where I am going wrong with this.  I know WW works, its worked for me TWICE before.  Why is it not working now?  Whats wrong with me?