Hi.  My name is Rachel  I am 35, single and live in NJ.   I stumbled on this site from Libragirl at Http://iflifewereperfect.blog-city.com.  What a great idea.

Anyway,  I need to lose about 30 lbs.  Make that want to lose 30 lbs.   Want sounds better then need.  More attainable.

I am doing a combination of diets.  WW and Nutrisystem   I hate the lunches but the dinners are really good and the breakfasts get the job done.      I am (un) officially starting today.  It’s a new month (ok tomorrow, but work with me people) so I tried and think I did ok.

Breakfast:   Nutrisystem of cherrios.  Preportioned amount.  No milk, cuz ewww.

Lunch:  A nutrisystem pre-made lunch of chicken pasta primavera.  Just add water and let sit for 8-9 minutes.   Tastes like ass.   I also had strawberries and kiwi as a fruit.

Dinner:  again NS meal.    Spinach and cheese ravioli with meat sauce and lettuce.  The lettuce wasn’t part of the meal…just a little extra.  I love lettuce.

I had water, but I know I need to drink more.  I didn’t have soda today, which normally isn’t a big deal, since I don’t drink a lot of soda normally, but when I get headaches, bad ones,  I need the caffeine.

So, that’s me.   I am glad I came across this site.  Hopefully, everyone is friendly and supportive.   They seem so.   Just looking at comments is amazing.

and I suck.   I am having such trouble sticking to anything.   I am eating junk food.   I am drinking more soda then I should (though in my defense, it’s really the only thing that helps my headaches, go figure,  and it’s diet)  I just can’t seem to get my act together.    So another week gone and all I managed to do was buy a house.   Ok, that’s big but I keep making the deal,  when I move (first into my co-op, then into this apt, now into my house)  I will be good.  I won’t buy junk food (and I don’t except for the occasional bag of tortilla chips) I will eat at the table, I will excercise, I will clean more (which I do but not as “hard” as I could)

I was going to title this I quit and just give up.  But I won’t do that.   I like the way I feel when I lose weight.   I like the energy.   I have been getting headaches more often then I usually do.   Which considering I always have a headache, is bad.   Let me rephrase, I have been getting debilitating headaches more often then normal.  The ones that you crawl into fetal position and pray someone gets the icepick out of your head.   Unfortunately, the only thing that cures them is sleep, salt and caffeine.   And since sleep isn’t always an option, salt and caffeine it is.   And my doctor actually told me to do that.    I have low blood pressure which is why the salt works.

Ok.   enough feeling sorry for myself.   It’s a new month.  I don’t want to do a new beginning again.  I was supposed to do a new beginning last week, but life got in the way.   (a being knocked on your ass headache actually is what it was).

New month, new beginning.     I can do it.  Right?

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