I am, really!

I haven’t checked in here for what feels like ages…just checked and in fact it has been 8 days. How awful of me, I am so sorry that I have not been more of a support to you gals!

Thats just over a week that I have been taking the levothyroxine for my underactive thyroid and I guess I am feeling a little better…could it be having an effect already or is it all in my head?  I have noticed something food wise – I seem to be more tired if I have had a lot of carbs.  Like having toast or cereal for breakfast doesn’t really do it for me….I had toast yesterday morning and was exhusted trying to walk back up from town (its not even a long walk people.)  If I have say toast with a couple of boiled eggs….that seems to keep my energy levels up till lunch….which means I get more exercise as I am not so tired!   Is that a thyroid thing or just a general nutritional common sense kind of thing?

I weighed myself on the Sunday just past…which happened to be my 26th birthday…and I got a nice surprise – down 2lbs even though I was way off the wagon food wise last week.

That makes for a total of 16lbs down from the 10th of January, taking me to 196lbs!

Only another 70lbs to go.  LOL.

One more pound lost… slow but steady. Total lost: 8 pounds; Pounds 2 Go for First Goal: 2; Pounds 2 Go for Ultimate Goal: 18.

This part of the scale has been the yo-yo ten pounds I’ve been batting around for about a year. I kept thinking if I kept my weight below 159, I’d be fine. So, I’d eat whatever and watch the scale climb to the dreaded Rubicon and then I’d kick in good eating habits temporarily and watch the dang numbers fall again to a more respectable number. Repeat cycle. Repeat cycle. Ad nauseum.

I am so sick of this ten pound span. This is it. This is the last time I see these numbers. Not only do I aim to get through this range, but I’ll stay well below it. I was inspired by Elle’s excitement to be at weights never acheived before. That’s what I want, too. So, “150′s,” you’ve been given fair warning. This is it. Soon, I won’t be seeing much of you ever again. We’ve had a decent arrangement, you and I, but it’s time I moved on to better places. I’m breaking up with you, 150′s.”

I really want to participate, but I also write about my weight loss in my own blog, so if you don’t mind, I am going to cut and paste, and then tweak a little. 

Ever have those mornings where you wake up and you feel like a fat, ugly blob? Or you wake up and you just feel so thin and beautiful, even though your rather large pants don’t slide to your ankles? Well, I woke up feeling thin and beautiful this morning. I exercised last Sunday by walking Nikki, and I moved my treadmill so I can use it on Thursday evening. After dinner, I didn’t really have time to walk on it though because it was after 10 p.m.

When I got to Weight Watchers today, though, the scale didn’t say I magically lost 55 lbs. It said I gained. I gained 0.6 lbs. The same 0.6 lbs I lost last week. My dad is ahead. (We are having a weight loss challenge.) But I don’t know how he did this week.

I usually go to Starbuck’s as a reward. This is something my dad suggested. I didn’t go today. I also have been thinking of using something else as a reward besides Starbucks. First of all, my husband and I always end up going to Starbucks during the week so that we have one hour where we can be together. It seems like every time we meet at his job, someone seeks him out. Like they don’t have 8 other hours they can find my husband and talk to him. Anyway, I haven’t figured out what to reward myself with yet, except a nap, but next week I think I will buy the new one skillet cookbook Weight Watchers has.

This week’s meeting was interesting. We talked about the things that help us with our Weight Watchers, such as portion size, water, activity, support. Then we talked about the tools we have to help us on our weight loss journey – water cups, measuring spoons, the etools and the 12-week materials. (The last two are my contribution.) The he talked about Thinspiration. This was what thin people do that really annoy us that our on Weight Watchers, but are probably what we should be doing anyway – not stress eating, taking only one bite of food, stopping when they are full, being active. I started thinking in that meeting that I should go over my materials again.

My leader always says, "Have a good week. It is only 7 days long. You can do this for 7 more days!" Yes, I can! I can do better than I have been.
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I also am going to aim for some goals this week. I haven’t put them up for a while. So, this week, I aim to:

• Walk on the treadmill twice this week.
• Journal at least two days or more. (I have been slacking on this and I am going to do what my leader suggested.)
• Read over my 12 week materials.

My leader always says, “Have a good week. It is only 7 days long. You can do this for 7 more days!” Yes, I can! I can do better than I have been.

So last time I wrote, I was within a pound of my first goal. Within a pound of being able to buy myself a new Vera Bradley purse. Well… in the past couple days I’ve reached my goal and maybe even a pound or so more.

But I still haven’t gone out and gotten my purse. Instead, I’ve been dealing with another “reward” instead…

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Totally unexpected. Totally unplanned. Totally not the reward I was going for. :shocked:

And all the weight I lost and then some is coming right back.

If this doesn’t prove God has a sense of humor, I don’t know what does!

So far, so good! Today’s a better day! I feel like my great aunt Gertie is standing over my shoulder with a reprimanding finger!

I’ve journaled breakfast and lunch and my water consumption. And should I put a morsel of *anything* in my mouth, it’ll be going on record. I reset my goals and food journal on SparkPeople and, though I’m NOT starting over, I’m using today as a clean slate and erasing the days I didn’t “conform” to my goals.

This isn’t very exciting to anyone else, of course, but I find that sharing it makes me more accountable. And that feeling of “being in control” is back. I feel far from invincible, but I feel better!

I hope you’re all having good days and enjoy the weekend!

The scale is still going the right way, slowly but surely. I had a .8 weight loss this week,w hich I was darn happy about since I’d gone out the night before and enjoyed Mexican food entirely too much.

I am on week 2 of the core plan and finding it easier and easier. For those interested, check out the Weight Watchers website message boards in the Core plan section. There are tons of people who post recipes, ask questions and give feedback on the core plan. It’s realy helpful!

For this week, I want to focus on staying on core, drinking more water and trying to exercise more. (I had a kickboxing injury to my hip that hasn’t seemed to improve, so I’ll also be seeing a doctor for that hopefully.) Best of luck to you all this week!

Pounds lost: 10.8
Pounds 2 Go: 19.2

Hi everyone — I should have posted this yesterday, as it was my weigh-in day. At my official weekly weigh-in, I lost a big fat nothing. Nadda. Zero. Zilch. Sigh. I guess there’s some comfort in the fact that I didn’t gain either, but I’ve been slapping my forehead ever since. :duh:

No excuses. I haven’t journaled for nearly a week. And I’ve made some really stupid choices. Period.

So, rather than beat myself up about it, I got back on track at SparkPeople today and recorded every single morsel that passed my lips (and stayed under my calorie intake) and I filled the day with tuna, salads, and steamed veggies. Hopefully, this is just the jolt I need to stay focused. I will NOT give up!

P2G: 54 [-14] :bawling: