I know yall haven’t heard from me in a while but the truth is I haven’t been doing much as far as weight loss goes. I try something for a little while, don’t see results, and then give up. But now I’ve come to the point where I’m sick and tired of feeling like this. So I’m taking some action. I’m joining Weight Watchers this week. Several men and women from my church have joined, including my pastor. They were talking about it tonight and my friend Amanda and I decided to join together. She’s been a member before but quit when she got married. This will be my first time. Our meetings are on Tuesdays. I’m a little nervous and I really hope this points thing isn’t hard to catch on to. I’m going to atleast give it a try - it won’t hurt anything.

I haven’t had the chance/time/motivation/computer ability to get here to post in a long time… if it’s not been one thing, it’s been another but mostly it’s been a procrastination thing. I can’t actually remember the last time I did more than skim the posts here let along the last time I actually posted something here!

For those of you who don’t remember or know me (that’d be everyone then!) I’m Emma, I’m 24, single (happily so!), no kids and am an advice worker. I’ve been trying and mostly failing to lose weight without following any strict diet. I try to exercise as much as possible but unfortunately my possible isn’t as possible as I’d like it to be if that makes sense - I am a wheelchair user and do get exercise in terms of swimming and weights at home and doing short “walks” in my manual chair but a lot (all, really) of exercise classes are out for me which I find a little annoying as I think they would be a great motivator for me.

When I was young I used to lose weight in the summer and then gain it over December and January. These past few years I’ve noticed that my pattern has changed. I actually begin gaining in the late summer. It starts with ice-cream in the evenings and by October I’m eating Halloween candy. Then in January I lose again.

This year I’m starting now. I’ve gained over the summer, but will be losing over October, rather than gaining.

Do you hear me?

I joined WW again last week, and am going to do my best to stick by it today. Because I really can’t stomach hurting my body like this again. Cause it does hurt it to abuse it like I do.

I have been very bad about updating on here. The reason is, I didn’t have good news. I wasn’t losing weight, wasn’t on Weight Watchers anymore, and even managed to gain back more than half of the 12 pounds I originally lost last Spring. I was embarassed. I was depressed. I felt like a failure yet again.

And, then I got tired of feeling that way.

I just signed up for a personal trainer at my gym. I’m on day 2 of her diet plan and workouts and I feel hope again. My eyes have been opened to a lot of things regarding nutrition. I thought I knew so much about what to eat, but really I wasn’t eating correctly at all.

And, while my workouts on my own have kept me from gaining all the weight back, and have kept my legs very toned (the trainer even said so!), they haven’t done the trick either.

Fall is here. I’m not ready to put away the shorts and t-shirts! Not so soon!

Actually, Autumn is usually my favorite season but this year it seems to have been nothing but rain so far.  I like some rain, not this much!

Somehow in all that rain I lost 2 lbs.   Honestly?  I don’t think I’m gonna try to find it.

I decided today not to continue with WW for the next 10 weeks. (I do an at-work program with 10-week sessions.) It’s not that I’m not benefiting from the meetings and the resources: I am. It’s that money is tight around our house right now, and we are cutting back to “essentials only” for September and October.

I’ve been sticking with the Core Plan and am finding that it works well for the way I shop, cook and eat. I’m going to need some social support, though, and am trying to figure out how to get some of what the meetings offer for free.

So, I’ll be checking in here more frequently and plan to see what the WW message boards have to offer. I’ve heard about Sparkpeople somewhere (here maybe?) and am wondering if anyone has any opinions about that.

Or anything else that meets the criteria of “helpful” and “free.”

I’ve been trying to drink all my water, but am finding it hard to do. A work I get busy and forget. At home, I pour a big glass and then get distracted by my toddler, sit the glass down, and find it hours later leaving a nice ring on the coffee table.

How do you get your water in? Because I’m beginning to feel like an IV bag of saline isn’t such a bad idea.